The Waiting
Day Arrives
Nhai carried a
fourteen month old baby, jumping along the small road paved with broken bricks.
She also sang songs with loud intermixed with low voice. Then, she stopped
under a Kok Ta Kop tree and was thinking;"People might think I am
mad. I already have a family. Why do I
still jump up and down like a teenager? Come on, Nhai! You are the head of the
explosives recovery team, why would you act like this?"
Nhai and her baby sat
down on a wooden bench in the middle of the yard. She looked into the sky above
the Kok Ta Kop tree, which was covered with green leaves. She watched the
clouds that floated around in the blue sky, pushed by the wind.
All this made her
think back six years ago, when she and her family lost her mother, a respected
elder member. That was in the middle of June, under a clear sky. Nhai was
carrying a food bag across the north side of the rice field when the blast of a
bomb explosion was heard coming from the west. Water particles were flying in
the air, amidst smokes that covered the whole bamboo forest.
Nhai frozed on the
spot, but tried to direct her eyes to the area on fire and emitting strong
smells. She was wondering if her father had detonated a bomb to clear up bamboo
trees at the edge of the rice field and make more room available for farming.
She tried to walk faster toward the edge of the rice field. But, oh my God, when she got to within less than
a few footsteps of the site of the explosion, she saw her father holding her
mother and crying.
"Nhai, your
mother got hit by a ‘bombie’! Go home quickly and tell Uncle Pheng to bring a
motor cycle here to take her mother to the hospital."
Her legs fainted on
the spot. Nhai sobbed with a voice that could be heard throughout the whole
rice field. She managed to touch her mother who was covered with blood. Both of
her mother’s legs were broken, and portions of her intestines popped up from
her stomach, covered with dark red blood.
"Please help my
mother. She got hit by a bomb".
This loud voice asking
for help resonated throughout the rice field and was heard by the other
villagers working in the area. Those folks dropped their hand tools and rushed
in to the site of the accident. But,
alas, after being carried halfway through the rice field, her mother couldn’t
resist the crucifying pain and died.
The funeral for Nhai’s
mother was performed at the village’s remote temple. Relatives came from everywhere to pay their
last respect to the deceased. Crying and moaning was the common practice;
people were commiserating and openly blaming the unexploded ordnances, “Oh! How
many more people will die because of ordnances?" Many funeral attendants
had tears running down their cheeks.
Nhai walked in slowly
and sat on her knees next to her mother’s coffin. Her eyes turned to a 25 by 30
centimeter photo of her mother. In her
hand were some burning perfume sticks. She cried and in the end managed to
utter a few words,
"My dear mother!
If your soul is alive, please help all of us to stay safe from danger. I don’t know what to do now that you are gone!”
She couldn’t do anything more other than crying with great pain and sorrow.
Her baby cried and
waked her up from her sad dream. She
stood up, dried her tears, looked at her baby, and said,
“Cha! Cha! Go back to
sleep in the cradle!”
Nhai hung the cradle
to a branch of Kok Ta kop tree and moved it around with the baby inside.
“Close your eyes, I
will sing to put you to sleep. I will
wash your diapers and wrap them around you. Eu! Eu! Close your eyes.” She went
through the same motion several times until the baby felt asleep.
Nhai then went to the
kitchen, placed some firewood under the soup pan, and returned to sit at the
same bench. By that time, the sky turned from blue to dark as if the rain was
on its way. Nhai looked to the west and saw a couple of birds flying east. This
type of weather reminded her of the first day she went in to apply for the
ordnances collector job, which was also the day she experienced her first
disappointment in life. Various derisive words were used by the villagers about
her job application, such as “A woman who doesn’t behave like a woman, way too
ambitious to apply for an ordnances collector job. She should be ashamed of
herself. Who is going to hire her? Plus, she barely has an education.”
Her father once told
her at dinner, “I think you should withdraw your application, Nhai. This is
becoming shameful. You can apply for a different job.”
“I can’t. I must apply and re-apply if I have to, as
long as they advertized for ordnances collector jobs. One day, they will
endorse me,” she said with her eyes looking down to the floor and forcing
saliva down her throat.
The third spring after
her mother’s death, Nhai was still thinking about trying to become an ordnances
collector. The thing she always remembered was the day she was asked to go in
for the interview.
“Do you really want to
be an ordnances collector?"
“Yes, I do."
“Why do you want the
job that bad?"
“There are many
villagers, including my own mother, who was killed by a bomb when she went
farming," said Nhai leaning against the table, scratching it with her
thumb nails, and acting very emotionally.
“OK, if you really
want the job, we will hire you to see how much patience you really have.”
“I will survive no
matter what happens.”
"You have to
understand one thing and that is, ordnances collection means risking your life
every second. If we do not learn all the things that need to be learnt, this
could mean potentially losing your life."
“Even if I die, I
won’t regret it."
“Do you know how many
times you have applied for this job?”
"Four
times."
“We want you to know
that this is the main issue. We have noticed your perseverance in going after
this job and we want to give you a chance, but you have to understand that
point.”
Nhai stood up from her
seat and kneed down on the floor with tears. These were tears of joy, tears
that marked a sudden lifetime opportunity to face future challenges.
Some of the negative
villagers’ feelings evaporated after she was sent for job training on ordnances
collection in Vientiane. At the graduation ceremony, Nhai was proclaimed the
top graduating trainee. The day of telling each other goodbye arrived. Everybody
raised their hands to do so with tears in their eyes and fond memories, before
going back to their respective assignment locations.
Time flied like water
going under the bridge. Nhai’s life changed from being a plain villager to
becoming a UXO team member. One could clearly notice that she always carried a
book in her hands, even when she was in the middle of rice field, baking under
the sizzling sun. She often opened the book, read a few pages of it, and went
back onto the ground to continue sorting and digging. From time to time, she
would pull out a handkerchief to wipe her sweat.
Her team leader often
congratulated her and said,
“You are doing a great
job, Nhai. This really reflects your strong desire to be an ordnances
collector”.
Not getting any
reaction other than a faint smile from Nhai, the team leader added, “I have
heard that you will be promoted."
After hearing that,
Nhai got up from the bomb hole she was digging and wiped her sweat. She put her
handkerchief in her pocket, and approached her team leader.
“It’s not that
important, boss. What is most important is to be able to do what you wanted to
do”, she said with a broad smile
“Well, that’s what
makes our big boss and our chief expert very happy”.
Nhai walked side by
side with the team leader and headed toward the rest area to have lunch as she
used to do every time during her work days. Nhai gave her assistance to many of
her team members, especially women.
“Nhai, why are you
sitting here by yourself?"
“Sy! Say something
before you walk in. You stunned me!”
“You
were dreaming, were you not?”
“I was dreaming all
over! What I can do for you?"
“This afternoon, the
project director wanted us to destroy a big unexploded bomb, but we don’t know
how to do it safely. That’s why I’m here to seek your help.”
Nhai said to her younger sister who was working on a silk weaver, “Somphou, please look after the nephew! I will go to work and will be
back as soon as I can.” Then,
Nhai stood up from the wooden bench, took a deep breath and thought about her
mother again.
“Mom! Today, I’m
getting what I had wished for. May your spirit protect me from danger all the
time! I will do this job the best I can. May your soul stay in heaven.”
Written on July 23,
2005
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