Eyes
Tainted With Dust
Do
you want to go and look at the cars with me?" a friend of mine asked while
staring at me from top to bottom.
“How can I go with
you? I don’t have money", I replied to him half-jokingly. But in the end,
I had to get into my friend’s luxury sedan and drove out with him to Thadeua to
look at cars at Thanaleng.
That day, the weather
in Vientiane was especially hot. Along the road, you could see steaming vapors
shooting up to the sky, which made you feel dizzy.
Less than twenty
minutes later, we arrived at Thanaleng. Somphone
disappeared into the office while Saysamonh and I wandered around the parking
lot where almost all types of cars are up for sale.
“This one is worth
$3,000 US, that one, $5,000 USD, and the ones over there, $6,000”, Saysamonh
told me, pointing to each individual car. In response, I nodded my head as
usual.
To
buy a nice car when you only have 10,000 kips in your pocket could be a
problem. The fact that the cars had to be paid in US dollars and that my salary
was fairly low made it extremely difficult for me to swallow. While my good
friend and I were walking around the car lot, the phone rang. I grabbed my cell
phone and said,
"Hello my friend,
how are you?"
"I am Ok."
"Can I help you
with anything?"
"Yes! Today my friend brought a pheasant from
Khamkeuth district. I would like you to come and see me, is that possible? I
would like to introduce you to him so he knows how you and I are related to
each other."
"OK! I will do
that. I should go back in a few minutes.
"
After he was done, my
friend started the engine and turned the wheels back to Bane Phonetong
Chommany. When we arrived at the appointment site, we were offered a glass of
cold water, which greatly pleased me. Although I have lived in this village for
many years, this was the first time that I had a chance to come to this place. I
didn’t know how long I was sitting there, sipping cold water, when somebody
brought a dish with fried squid and placed it in front of me, along with two
bottles of Lao beer.
“Fresh water is not
good enough; fresh beer is better", said a woman in her thirties who came
and sat beside me, laughing with pride after making that introductory comment.
After a few glasses of
beer, I started feeling a little bit dizzy. My face was getting numb. The hostess
told the cook,
"Let’s serve
lunch, it’s getting late!"
Lunch was then promptly
served. By then, the dish of fried squid
was already empty. My buddy looked at me several times, but I didn’t know what
he was trying to tell me. The time was 1:30 p.m., which was way past the usual
lunch-hour accordingly to local standards. I felt hungry and didn’t pay
attention to my friend’s signals. As I was squeezing the vaporizing sticky rice
in my hand and about to dig into the pheasant salad bowl, my friend said,
"I will
definitely defame you! I am pretty sure I will do it!"
My friend looked at me
again as I was about to hit the bowl to get some food for my empty stomach. I
was hungry, my face was pale, and my heart was beating stronger than normal. I put the sticky rice in my mouth and started
chewing. The hostess looked at me with a
sweet smile and said,
"Bon
appétit! Please eat! Or, maybe, you
don’t eat pheasant?”
“I know you are one of
the government officials who urge people not to hunt wild animals. If you eat pheasant, I will slander you,"
my close friend repeated.
"You can eat it.
There is nothing wrong; the pheasant was already dead," my hostess
commented.
"If you eat it, I
will know all your hidden secrets," my close friend warned.
"If we do not eat
it, other people will because it was dead," my hostess added.
"If you eat it,
that means you are lying to yourself and to others. You wanted people to stop
eating wild animals and stop killing them, but you yourself eat those animals,"
my close friend repeated.
I kept squeezing and
squeezing the sticky rice that I had in my hand until it was as sticky as the
glue. I swallowed the rice wad with great effort like someone pulling a fallen
tree by its branches. My saliva was dry
like the forest in May, before the onset of summer. My face was so numb that I
would not have felt any pain when hit by a 5-kilogram hammer.
"Do it, my
friend! Eat the wild animal’s meat. It was 100 percent dead”, my hostess chimed
in.
"Is that because
you don’t you eat wild animal’s meat, or is that because of your official
duties?” asked a man in his forties who sat close by.
"No! No!" I
replied with trembling voice.
"If it is not
because of your duty, then you can eat it," said the thirty years old
woman.
"My friend is one
of the workers who preach wild animals preservation," my buddy clarified.
"Duty is duty;
eating is eating," my hostess concluded.
I did not know what to
do; but my hand mechanically reached out for a spoon on the lunch basket. I used
the spoon to pick a piece of pheasant’s meat and put it in my mouth. People
were looking at me all at once, including my hostess and everybody else present
in the room. Everything happened very quietly and very quickly…
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